Impact Day

Today is an impact day in my life...

It is Dec 22, 2009 and today I am going to have lunch with my mom at 12:00pm...meet Gretch for an ultrasound at 3:00 pm...and then shop for our baby boy or girl at 4:00pm.

Yep This the day we find out if we are having a boy or a girl.

People keep asking me what do I want...I keep responding "a baby".

They ask me what I think it is...I think "a baby".

Here's my thoughts...

I don't get to choose what sex it is.....I do get to choose how I react to what sex it is.

So...it's 6:48 am when I am writing this...by 4:00pm I will know.....

So my soon-to-come dear boy or girl (currently "a baby")....I want you to know that whether I am buying pink clothes or blue clothes today doesn't matter to me...

What does matter is I have the distinct pleasure of getting to buy you clothes.

I get the distinct pleasure of getting to dream more vividly about you and your life to come.

I get the distinct pleasure of knowing that what is to be....is being dictated word for word.... by the author of the universe, and I have no say...no power...no decision...except one....

Yep today I get to unwrap this part of the gift he is giving me... on this day...this special day....this day of impact.

I have made my decision...boy or girl...get ready kiddo....for I have decided to make your life awesome fun!

Tonight 20 Years Ago

Tonight 20 years ago I could not Blog about this
Tonight 20 years ago I was 19 years old
Tonight 20 years ago I was at the U of U
Tonight 20 years ago I was watching my TV in AWE
Tonight 20 years ago I went to bed...not as worried about Nuclear War
Tonight 20 years ago I went to bed on a twin bed at my mom's house
Tonight 20 years ago I was standing with the German people
Tonight 20 years ago I was crying at the thought of unity
Tonight 20 years ago I was spurred on by the courage of a people
Tonight 20 years ago I watched a power tool used so eloquently
Tonight 20 years ago I had the words "tear down this wall" reverberating in my head
Tonight 20 years ago I had not met Gretchen
Tonight 20 years ago I went to bed
Tomorrow 20 years ago I woke up to a brand new world...more courageous...more empowered...less afraid...
My old maps...my old school books...they were now WAY out of date and ((hopefully)) useless forever!

Amazing Pace

Amazing Pace...Amazing Grace

It's been quite a couple of weeks.

Utenited started up, and people and friends lives blew up.

Marriages and break-ups mixed

It's been crazy the pace we have been running.

We are both a bit tired, but in the midst of it all...

Well let's just say amazing grace

We celebrate today a milestone

Not an anniversary, not some made up day, nope

A real milestone

Today is day three of this party wrapped in the blanket of amazing grace

I have to go to work, so does my wife, we have so many things to do, and so little time to get them all done.

Yet let the winds blow, let the sky's open up and pour, let the lightning flash

For tonight we come home late...but we come home to a place of peace, and we lavish in God's grace...and then we gather ourselves once again, for tomorrow the sun will rise.

"In" love

Have you ever thought about the question what it means to be "in" love?

I was sitting here thinking about the question just a few minutes ago and came up with a thought.

First off, I love many people, but I am not in love with many of them.

Here's what I think it means...

When your in love you're contained by it....no matter where you look (even in the darkest corner you can find) you're still there, you're still contained, you're still in love.

In love means there is no escape hatch (it was sealed years ago). There is no escape. No matter how bad it gets, no matter how close you look, no matter what your feeling in the moment, no matter what...it just doesn't matter...

You are "IN" love.

note: just because you're in love it does not mean there are times you shouldn't get out of the situation...like if your being abused or being beaten etc..., but even then...the feelings are hard to escape.


Just thinking

OK...back to my nap...

Facebook, Van Wilder and Air Supply the domino effect

Tonight I looked at my life closely. You see so often I forget one of the most important aspects of life...chill out you weenie...it's about others....forget the dumb rules out there...and have a bit of fun while you're at it.

I started on this path about a month ago on facebook...."oh my facebook how I love thee"...

I started posting some old photos...but in so doing I remembered so much about what I have learned.

Then I spent some time with a friend today on his 38th...

But the big one happened just moments ago....Van Wilder..it pulled it all together

Yep...one of the dumbest movies of all time...a movie about a party'er who really knows how to love.

It hit me during the movie while they were playing air supply....

Why air supply...because ...well....they wrote sweet nice songs...and I like nice sweet songs...a-lot

and it just hit me ...
the final domino....
I remembered...

but what you may ask....what had I began to forget again...?

It's fun...and not so serious

Life that is...it's fun...it contains love...it holds love...people want to play...you just have to knock .

I know there are tough moments...don't get me wrong...

but for me..

4 me..

I am going to keep the rules that help others...forget the rules that protect me....have fun with people...be fun to people...be excited about the possibilities..accept the outcomes...aim further ahead...and knock on those doors more often...your door...

pssst I know where you live...

I coming a knock'n...and I'm singing

Oh yes singing real loud

"That was the heartbreak...but now that I found you...even the nights are better now that we're here together"

My Love For Coffee

MMMMMMMMM...coffee

MMMMMMMMM...

Why do I love it so much...is it the taste..nope..
Is it the Aroma...well I like it a-lot
Is it the warmth....on a cold day that rules

But why such a love affair.

My earliest memories are about coffee

My grandparents were extremely well off. They had lived quite a life. At one point my granddad was ranked 7th in the nation for early NASCAR. At one point they built a stadium. They were quite a pair. But boy were they about proper behavior.

Meals were to be at an exact time (not a minute early or late). They were kinda uptight about some things...but always had a joke to share.

But coffee...where does that come into play?

Well...

They lived in Florida, and every morning without fail they would go on their back porch and talk. They would sit around that round glass table and just talk about life and the day to come.

I was little...

I was probably 3-4 years old...

I was up early....

They were always up early...with the sunrise.

I would go on the back porch with them.

They would sit me down and make me a cup of coffee. It had a lot of milk and sugar...

They would let me join in the talks..

I loved that...I loved them....

I love coffee...it's a reminder of them....

It reminds me to step back...slow down..discuss truly important things.... and connect deeply...

I still put a ton of sugar in it...I still prefer it with milk....I still remember the smells of their backyard...

I love coffee....

Cheers Grandma and Grandpa....cheers!

The Death Star

Ok,

Do you ever have one of those nights when you dream something and you're like..."that is so brilliant"...

But it's only in your dream.

Then you wake up and think REAL hard trying to remember how smart you were...asleep...at 2:00am....

and when you finally remember ...it's like..."I am such a weenie!"

Yep, that was me last night....

So here it is...

"When talking with others you should never be the Death Star (Star Wars reference)....blowing them up with your ...super duper death laser"

"Instead you should be a Guest Star....letting them take the spotlight and you acting as a person that helps them look even cooler"

Oh...MY......I am still laughing at how stupid this is now that I'm awake....

I am so thankful for blogging...because that could have ended up in a lecture I was giving...

Phew

(((little smirk on my face as I log off with)))

You a Death Star or Guest Star?

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